it has been said, 'you have to go through hell before you get to heaven'
I agree, but just wish that didn't have to be so literal with dating. i mean, let's look at this--you find, you try to become friends (which doesn't work out how it is supposed to), try to go on dates (which are typically far from amazing), and then wonder when or if you can or should call again. i mean, dating is like a full time job with little pay, and in my experience, few benefits (if you know what i mean).
I had a friend that ended the remnants of a pseudo-relationship (those are the best....TO END!). i look at the whole entity of their relationship and just think to myself, 'she doesn't know how good she has it'. i wonder how many people thought that as i was dating some of the amazing girls i have. and in retrospect, it is always more difficult.
but in the end...it is worth it. Although i look at how much money i've spent on dates and realized that i could have saved a few thousand dollars and just got a book at the library about life to learn all the lessons i have learned, it has been a wild trip. a trip that soon has to come to an end.
So while i am still single, i've decided to break up with a large part of me: my single life. I have had this love affair with her for too long and i'm ready to move on. so i did it, i wrote her a brake up song, told her it was me and not her, and now i'm watching her crawl back. But it is over. I am through with my single life.
I feel a lot like this ship. i've wondered whether it was coming in from a long voyage, or on its way out. But i cry, "o captain! my captin, our fearful trip is done". I am going into harbor and away from the tumultuous seas of singledom. Over-dramatic? Yes, mother, probably.
Do i care that i publish this online when anyone could read this (including the girls i'm trying to date) and get scared off...no. why? because let's be honest, besides me, you are probably the only other person to read this. So as long as you don't tell....i won't either. ;)